Your Elias

Aminah, 

You are surrounded by people who love you. You are loved and wanted. 

One of the people who love you so much is your big cousin/brother Elias Mylo. 

Elias has a sparkle in his eye when he looks at you. 

There was one time where Elias you and I were sitting on the floor in the living room when I stepped away for a moment. In that moment you fell backwards and hurt your little head. Your cries filled the whole house. I felt guilty and awful. 

Now, whenever you sit on the floor, Elias tenderly grabs the nearest pillow and cautiously places it behind you. 

Happy BEarthday

Happy birthday, my love. 

You had a very special first birthday this year. 

We woke up together and sang happy birthday to you. We continued to sing happy birthday the whole day. When you wanted to hear it once more you started to clap and sing. 

I happily obliged. 

Our little family. We went to iHop for your celebratory break-fast. That whole day. I savored every moment of it. 

I made a cashew, date, strawberry frosting for the chocolate chip cake I baked. I put you in the beautiful black dress with the roses. To my surprise it still fit you. You looked so cute in it. 

We had a little photoshoot. I could tell you felt so special and loved. 

You blew out the trick candles. Afterwards you and I went to Van Cortland park. We walked the tracked and made our way to the playground. You enjoyed watching the runners make their way to their perspective finish lines. I did too. 

While swinging, I got a call from Masiel. Your great grandmother passed away. I broke down in tears and mourned for my sweet grandmother. 

I also cried because of your innocence.